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my uncle has just gone to the operation room. he had a stroke recently and he's been hospitalized for nearly a month. so, my sched now a days is really restricted as we have to go to the hospital every night. hate the hospital. wasn't really going there every night. but can't go shopping and all because driver sends my aunt to hospital so we stuck in house. wish he gets well very soon. people miss him. can't imagine what will happen if he... blue christmas!

i'm enjoying my work so much. not that i like working. it's so bloody tiring and boring at the same time. just that i like my workmates. i love them sooo much. even though i'm new they are patient with me and always assist me. sometimes, i'm even short and they pay for it beacause it's their cash machine. of course feeling guilty so balanja them every time to make up for it. it's been a good week. but i'm really careful not to make mistakes. cause i know there's a calm before the storm. everytime something good happens, disaster will soon strike. omens. i beleive. i'm so scared right now that something bad will happen and they won't like me anymore. i'm cherishing each and every moment. now they keep on teasing me. you see my aunt owns the store. and she always comes by and treat me lunch. so they will go like "pa bili mo nalang kay aunty" or "ok lang yan, an dyan naman si aunty eh." and also beacuse my aunt's the owner they kind of treat me different. more respected. sigh. but i still love them.

feels so different than in singapore. those racist bastards. they will deny it but they are. it feels more at home here. i love it here. i don't want to go back to singapore